Why cant I be a kid again? No worries.

 

Last night I had a dream that I was a little kid again living in Mexico. When I woke up this morning of course my first though was that I did not want to go to work but I also though about how happy I was when I was little even though I had so much crazy things going on with my parents. When I was little and I lived in Mexico everything was care free for the most part. I lived in a small town/city in the southern part of Mexico. San Jose de Gracia Michoacan brings back really good memories of my childhood. I remember I was a bad little gal my mom use to be so mad at me because I use to find some scandalous things to do. I recall one time me my brother and my friends got out of kindergarden and there was this big puddle of water and mud and we all just went to town in looked like pigs afterwards. Every time I think of that I just wish I was a little kid again so I did not have to worry about nothing, no bills, no work, no college, and no drama. When we are kids everything seems so easy and nice we have our parents that give us everything they can and we just focus on the small stuff. I know part of being an adult is growing up but sometimes I just wish I was still my moms baby. I know many of you are going to laugh at me but I do not care because my childhood was so full of adventure, trouble, traveling, hiking, among many other things. Now that I am older I like the city but there are also perks of living in a small town.

Break?

 

Is it spring break yet? Sadly spring break is still a week away and it feels like a month. This whole going to school five days a week is kicking my bottom. I swear it feels like every time I look at the clock it is all ready 10 o'clock at night all ready. I feel like there s not enough time in the day to get all the stuff that I need to do done. It probably do not help that I like to squeeze some naps in here and there but hey what can I do. Honestly what I could do is be a more responsible adult and set a schedule up for everything that I need to do within that week and just keep it going.I just have to keep telling my self get through this last week and you will have a week break from everything which sometimes it does not happen but a girl can only wish. Even though I am looking forward to spring break that also reminds me that I have a lot of work to do before break. Some of the things on my to do list are study for my Anatomy exam, finish up my essay, and try to keep up with micro. Instead of counting down for spring break I should be counting down for summer break but hey I get what I get and spring break comes first. Lets just hope I get all this work done before the break, I mean get it done the right way.

Why so much hate? We are grown adults

 

Why is it that nowadays all we hear about is crime and hate? Personally I do not understand how some people can take their beliefs and hate to certain extents in which they might harm another human. I am not saying that I personally like everyone I know but there come as time in which we have to start thinking as the adults that we are and stop letting other individuals influence who we are. In todays society there seems to be so much hostility towards people who do not fit the norm that has been carved into our minds. Some of the minorities affected the most are LGBT individuals, Hispanics, and African americans. The sad part of this is that people who have been discriminated for so long, treated with hostility, made to be less than they are happen to be some of the main aggressor who passes down the hate. For everyone out there that has a prejudice agains somebody regardless of the reasons, I ask for you to sit back a revaluate how it feels to be on the other side. It is out job as grown adults to educate our selves even more about topics that we do not and might even fear. Take a chance and get to know the person for who they are and not for the label that society has put on them. I know for a fact that LGBT individuals are affected greatly by this because people fear what they do not know. I have been blessed to have met so many wonderful people in my life so far that come from so many different parts of life and the only way I was able to really know them is to give them a change and vice versa. Pass on love not hate.

Sleep my life away.

 

This weather is driving me crazy so much. Lately I have been feeling so tired and drained of energy for no reason. I have no idea what is going on with my body but as a normal human I am going to blame it on this crazy weather. I think this weather is making me feel tired and lazy all the time, honestly all I ever wanna do is sleep. This was my weekend off and I did manage to do some family things but I tell you what, when I got home I was so tired and worn out. Maybe I need to start eating better or something because being this tired cannot be healthy. Today we had the option to not have class and of course we all voted to not have class, well the responsible thing to do would have been to finish my paper but no I slept mostly all day. I feel so guilty and ashamed that I rather sleep then do some work but my body is so tired all the time I just do not know what to do anymore. I usually hate going to the doctor for many different reasons but right now maybe going to the doctor sounds like a good idea. Honestly I think the last time I went to the doctor was about 1 year ago if not longer. I just really hate going to the doctor and rather just not go but I have to start taking better care of my body.

Wonderful Saturday.

 

Today was such a wonderful day, I only wish more of my saturday would be like the one I had today. This morning I woke up and I was not feeling it, I honestly did not want to do anything but lay in bed but my family had other plans. My mom and brother were going to see my other family in chicago and pretty much have a family day and even though I was feeling so lazy I decided to get up and go because I do not get to spend a lot of time with them. It has been such a long time since I went to chicago to have some fun with my family and it was way overdue. After deciding to get up me and my mom got all dolled up and what not and headed to chicago. I was surprised traffic was actually not that bad and we made it there in about 45 minutes which was not too shabby. My brother really wanted to go to china town so we all decided to go and get some food and bubba tea from my favorite place. I was so excite because it had been a while since I had some bubba tea and I missed it, my favorite one is pineapple-coconut tapioca which is flame. We went in and some pretty good food, I was a little sad because the food was not on point like it usually is but the bubba tea was fire. I was so full and sleepy afterwards so we had family time and came back to portage. I really enjoyed this beautiful day.

Confliction of jobs.

 

Something that crossed my mind today while I was at work was how much I dislike people that do not like doing their job and seem to think you owe it to them to do their job. For the most part I usually respect everybody's job and do not look down on anybody's profession because everyone needs a job. Today somebody manged to changed my mind about this ideal of mine, not all the way but some kind of way. I just do not understand how when you are hired to do housekeeping and laundry why it becomes such a big deal when there is plenty of laundry to do and rooms to clean. It has become a huge problem at my job when the CNA's unwillingly give the house keepers extra work. A pretty good example of this is when can have to strip plenty of beds because they happen to be wet and of course need changed. Well somehow this seems to be a problem because they do not feel like it is their job to do the extra laundry that we are giving them and it is too much work to do, not only that but also expect us to take the laundry down for them. Well excuse me if I mind taking laundry down but last time I checked thats part of doing laundry, also I am sorry if I want my residents beds to be clean and change them if they are dirty.  Also I do believe my job of taking care of individuals is more important than laundry, I hate to sounds like that but it is what is it.

This just goes to show if you do not like your job find another one. I just hate when people act like this.

my phone

Why do cell phones have to break so easily, I mean since they cost around 600 dollars you would think they would last thru almost anything but no they break so easily. In the last 2 years I have gone thru 3 cell phones and let me just say it has not been cheap. It could have been more expensive but thank god I had insurance so it would only cost me 150 dollars for a new phone which is still pretty expensive. About a week ago I dropped my phone in water and it did work after that but now it is starting to act all weird. Every time I try call anybody or answer a call I have to put it on speak which can be very annoying in public places and crowds. Now I am deciding if I wanna buy another phone or replace it with my insurance. I have no clue which one to choose they both have their perks, if I choose to buy a new phone I would be dishing out around 600 dollars for the phone I want. In the other hand if I decide to use my insurance for another phone it would only be 150 dollars but it would not be a new phone that I like it would just be another one like the one I have. Money is tight right now so I am even considering just keeping this phone like this until I have enough money to hopefully buy a brand new phone. Hopefully it happens soon.

Winter disaster.

Surprisingly we had another snow storm yesterday and got sent home early from school which I was a little bummed about only because I can concentrate on school work better when I am in school. Driving home was crazy as soon as I got 149 in the valparaiso area it was a full blown blizzard. Honestly I love snow storms among many other weather changes that mother nature produces, I find them really interesting and pretty to look at for the most part. One thing that I cannot stand is when the weather is bad and other drivers try to rush you to go faster, that is one thing that gets me irked. I do not understand how people do not understand that under dangerous weather conditions individuals should not drive as if it was 80 degrees and sunny. Finally I got home safe driving like a grandma but I do not care what people think because I got home in one piece and that is all I care about. For the rest of the day I pretty much relaxed and called it a day since I had to work in the morning and go to school the next day not to mention the crazy blizzard outside. My day got even worse today because when I tried to make it to work this morning my car got stuck in the snow again and it took me 3 hours to get it out. After having to do all the work my body was hurting and I relaxed I had such a intense back pain. Sadly I did not make it to work today because of that. This weekend needs to get here sooner.

Makeup!

 

Have you ever had an obsession with shopping? I am guilty of this but not just any kind of shopping I love buying makeup. I have always loved makeup since my high school years, I think I started wearing make up freshman year in high school. I know this might seem a little late but thats how I was raised or at least until I had my own money to start buying it. At first I use to buy drugstore brand makeup but now I am all into more high-end make up such as: Urban decay, Tarte, MAC, Too faced, and The balm among many other brands. I know I probably have more makeup then I will ever need but I swear its like an addiction. Every time I go to Sephora or Ulta I see new products that I want to try and end up getting them. I good example of this are lipsticks, I love lipsticks so much specially when I see a color that I do not have sometimes it might even be a shade lighter hahaha. Foundations are another big thing for me even tho I do still buy drugstore foundations for work and other occasions that I do not want to waste my expensive foundation. Honestly my ultimate weakness are eyeshadow palettes I just cannot get enough of them I probably have about 30 eyeshadow palettes . My favorite eyeshadows come from urban decay, they are so smooth, silky, and long lasting what else can a girl ask for. I hope there are other people out there that share the same love for something as much as I do.

Really what a horrible day.

 

After writing yesterday that I had such a great day things took a turn for the worst, I guess people are right when they can do not count your meal before you eat it. After leaving class I was suppose to have plans with a special someone and I though I was going to have a good night but well no of course it was not going to be that easy. I was in school in Ivy tech and was going to go to my friends house but he has moved to a new house so I had to use my GPS to get there. He live close to some places that I knew so I figured it was not going to be that hard and again I was wrong. Tell me why I got lost for 30 minutes because my GPS wanted to be an ass and kept loosing signal, I am pretty sure it might have to do something with the fact that my phone sucks. Regardless of that fact it is still very upsetting that I could not count on my phone. After trying to figure this whole mess out I gave up and decided to go back home since I kind of knew my way back. I swear, I was so heated that I started to cry of how freaking mad I was. I had not been that mad in months even years if I really think about it. Today I though it was going to be better but no as I was trying to leave for school I slid in my driveway and fell hurt my side really bad was in a lot of pain. I went back inside to calm down. When it rains it pours.

yess great day :)

 

Finally after a long week I can finally say I had a pretty awesome day. I am not going to lie and say my day started out good because in reality who likes to wake up at 5:30 to go in to work. As always tho coffee saved my day 8 creamers and 2 sugar just how I like it. I prefer pumpkin spice with some vanilla in it but lets get back to topic. My work day was pretty awesome I got to work with my besties in crime Sam and Adriean and as always we got stuff done pretty fast and well done. After getting everything done I was kind of bored because we had to wait for it to be time for lunch but it was time for us to eat. I honestly ate so much at work today I had a cheese omelette, chinese frozen food, and finally some chicken that my boss ordered and it was flame. Obviously after eating all of that I felt like death, I was so full and got sleepy really quick which always happens to me when I eat. I got to leave work right on time and went home to get ready for my night class and maybe a date. I was so excited did my make up all cute and got dressed nice just in case my plans did come though after class. I was so mad when I left home because I actually forgot to grab my gloves and it was so freaking cold on my way to school. Hopefully my night stays great. :)

why is everthing making me mad.

 Why does doing my taxes have to be do dam complicated? Well here we go I tried doing my taxes around 2 weeks ago with the free online H&R block and got a good amount but I did not submit it because I am not knowing of tax stuff so I felt weird about it. Well now it has been what 2 weeks and I have not made an appointment with the lady I went to last year. Tonight I got home and thought to my self well maybe I could just do them and submit it my self so I tried doing them my self with the H&R block online tool but no why would my amount come up to be the same again right? The amount was different than what I got last time I tried doing it, so that definitely makes me feel like what in the hell how is it so hard to do this dam taxes I am so dang upset right now. Now I have to make an appointment with the lady I went to last year and hope she can fit me in sometime soon since I will be out of money soon. And being broke is not cute. Now I am here thinking I wish my dang schedule was not so crazy because I have a feeling shes only going to be bale to fit me in at a time when I am either at school or work. I will be livid and the diabla will come out.

How much stress can be handled?

 

Have you ever had a day when everything feels like its going so slow? Well ladies and gentlemen that was my day today. I woke up this morning feeling so tired and not wanting to go to work, but who actually likes going to work at 6 am right?. When I finally got to work the worst things happened, the coffee machine was empty and I had to go look for help. I literally wanted to cry thats how much I need my coffee in the morning, I know people say coffee is not addictive but I care to disagree. After finally getting me some coffee and got to work. My day did not get any better as usual it was a crazy day and non stop work. I even manage to get lucky enough o get dragged by my hair by one of my patients how lucky can I be. Finally work was over and I got to go home and rest for a little before I had to start getting ready for school. I really hate tuesdays and thursdays my schedule really sucks this semester I do not know how I am going to make it. I literally go from work to school and school to work one can only hope that my schedule gets better next semester. Another big things that bothers me is having to go to that evil class every tuesday and thursday I hate that class with a passion, I just pray that god gives me the will to make it.

Years in Prison

 Drug trafficking is a very lucrative million dollar industry in the United States. Drugs are very dangerous substances that cause many dangerous side effects to the individuals consuming it. While it is one's choice to administer drugs into our body, the person providing illegal drugs to the general population is partly responsible for the effects, and dangers the consumer might encounter while under the influence of the drug. Laws convicting individuals of drug charges should be equal across the judiciary system. While everybody who gets convicted of drug charges get a sentence some individuals get minimized sentences based on race, gender and intel. Sandra Avila Beltran a rare female in the macho drug trafficking industry was arrested in 2007 in a Mexico city cafe. Beltran was later extradited into the United States five years later on a variety of drug charges including conspiring to import pounds of cocaine into the United States. Beltran pleaded guilty in order to reduce charges agains her, under Beltran's plea deal she was only getting charged to being an accessory in helping her boyfriend escape the authorities. The United stated states authorities believed that that Beltran was a very important link between drugs coming from Columbia and the Mexican Cartel that were being snuggle into the United States. Beltran was sentence by a judge to served time in jail and to return to her home country. Although Sandra Avila Beltran gave the United Stated authorities intel she should still have to face more jail time like any other individual being convicted of drug charges. In todays society there needs to be a more equal fair judicial system in which constituents are not able to get way with murder, drug trafficking, rape the list goes on. Equal sentences need to be implied on the individuals commiting the crime regardless of the color of their skin, social standing and connections they might have among other factors. Constituents of the United States of America should have equal treatment and not have to fear being targeted because of their background.

Narcocorridos

All over the world there are many different genres of music that people listen to. One of the most important things about music are the lyrics and messages that the song expresses. In the past three decades a new genre of music called Narcocorridos rose to popularity in Mexico and the United States. Narcocorridos are ballads that focus on drug dealers and drug trade among others things. While Narcocorridos are very popular there are still a lot of mixed feelings about them from different points of view because the messages they express are rumored to have caused deaths. The Narco culture and Narcocorridos have a strong effect on its audience; especially young people. The Narco lifestyle has become very seductive and lucrative to people who listen to the songs and watch the movies about the drug lords and the cartels. For people who have little or no income, it is very easy to fall victim to this lifestyle. The population that lives this lifestyle chose to worship the Holly death because they think that it will protect them from harm, which personally, I think, is pretty crazy. Younger generations would rather be drug dealers instead of doctors, lawyers, or teachers among other things due to the faster income and power that comes with it. With so many well known Narcocorridos such as “ La Reina del Sur” appealing to Hispanic listeners while praising drug dealers, it makes it seem widely acceptable to be drug dealing. Hispanic youth needs to realize that drug dealing is not the answer to their problems.

A little freestyle history.

 Do you know what Latin Freestyle is?As said by Judy Torres ”Freestyle songs are like really dramatic Spanish soap operas — being in love, breaking up, catching someone cheating on you — intense and passionate, slightly overdramatic."Have any of you ever listen to latin freestyle? I think mostly everybody here has listen to Freestyle without even knowing it,I love latin freestyle I have been listening to it since I was little. I remember my mom and her friends always listening to it while doing their make up and getting ready to go out. Ever since then I have been a freestyle fan and will always be. Freestyle is a very unique genre of music that everybody can enjoy and relate to. Freestyle or more commonly know as latin freestyle is a form of American electronic dance music of electro-funk, post-disco,italo-disco,hip-hop that is very popular within the hispanic/latino communities. Latin freestyle emerged in the United States in the mid-1980s and experienced its greatest popularity from the late-1980s until the early 1990s. Latin freestyle music developed primarily in the Latino communities of New York, Miami in the 1980s. It was initially a fusion of synthetic instrumentation and syncopated percussion of 1980s electro music, as Hip-hop music became more popular it was later incorporated into Latin freestyle music. Some of the most popular latin freestyle singers/songs were Cynthia, Lil Suzy, Stevie B, Johnny O, Shannon, The Cover girls, Expose, George Lamond, Lisa Lisa & Cult jam, TKA, Noel, Company B, Information Society, Sa-Fire, Sweet Sensation, Coro, Lisette Melendez, Judy Torres, Timmy T, Rockell among many others. While some of my favorite freestyle songs are, Shannon “Let the music play”, Lisa Lisa & Cult Jam “I Wonder if I Take You Home”, Johny O “Fantasy Girl”, Freestylers “Don't Stop the Rock”, Stevie B “Spring Love”, Cynthia “Change on Me”, Lil Suzy “Take Me in You Arms”, The Cover Girls “Show Me” among many others. Freestyle will always have a place in my heart.

My epic fail of a day

 

Yesterday was one of the worst days I have had in a long time. It all started when I woke up, I just had this feeling that it wasn't going to be so great. Well I got up and stated to get ready for class did my hair makeup and all that other good stuff, well I told my mom I had a feeling I should not be driving to school today but oh well I was. Finally, I was done with all my stuff and got ready to head out the door but I kept forgetting things inside the house which I kept going back for. After getting all my stuff I walked to my car but “Noooooo” the snow was not about to let me do it and decided to shake the floor on me and I fell on my drive way which sucked!. I cried like a baby for like ten minjtes, well not really but I was complaining. The snow in my sub-division did not get plowed and I had a hard time driving well I did not even make it out of my sub-division before I was stuck. It took me two hours to get my car out with the help of the owner of the house I was stuck by when I finally got home to relax and have something hot to drink the worst thing that could have happened did happened and I dropped my phone in some water. My day was over I called it a day and went to bed because I was so mad.

Evil class!

 

Have you ever had a class that you hate so much it makes you depressed? Well my friends that is the predicaments I am in. I am currently taking Microbiology at Ivy-tech in Valparaiso because when I signed up for classes all the spots at PNC were all ready filled. Personally I believe that there is an academic difference from Ivy-tech to PNC, I feel that PNC has better everything personally. The problem that I am having right now it's not even the class it is the professor. Sadly, Ivy-tech does not have plenty qualified professors to teach Microbiology and I am stuck with a professor that does not know what he is doing. I am so upset about this class because we are all ready a month into the semester pretty much so I am stuck in this class with this teacher that does not know how to teach and just makes the class even harder. I have considered dropping the class but that would set me back a whole semester to get into the Nursing program at PNC. I have asked him for helped as well as other students but he just has the most vague responses that show he does not care about teaching that class. I remember clearly on the first day of class he said this is only a part time job for me so don't expect too much ugh I just wanna pull my hair out. Hopefully as the semester goes on everything will get better.

Naked 3 Palette Review

 Its finally here the Naked 3 palette well it has been here but I am doing a review on my thoughts about it. The Naked 3 palette comes in a metal 8 inches by 2.75 inches case much like the Naked 2 palette. You get 12 shadows, a Double-ended Crease and Shadow Brush and an Eyeshadow Primer Potion sampler which contains 4 resealable 0.025 oz of the Original, Sin, Eden and Anti-Aging formulas, each good for 1 week. The eyeshadows in the Naked 2 palette come in a variety of finishes, shimmer, pearl, matte and glimmering metallic. While it contains all those finishes the color selection overall is not as broad as the past 2 Naked palettes. The Naked 3 palette is full of rose gold heaven. Below I have described each shade.
Strange is a very light chalky pink with a matte-satin finish.
Dust is a metallic pale pink shimmer with iridescent micro-glitter. A lot of fallout which personally I don't mind.
Burnout is a light warm peachy pink with satin finish.
Limit is a matte light dusty rose.
Buzz is a metallic rose shimmer with silver micro-glitter.
Trick is a metallic copper with tonal micro-sparkle.
Nooner is a medium pinky-brown with matte finish.
Liar is a medium metallic brown with mauve undertones.
Factory is a satiny pinky-brown.
Mugshot is a metallic taupe shimmer with slight pink shift.
Darkside is a satiny deep taupe with mauve/gray undertones.
Blackheart is a smoky matte black with rosy red micro-sparkles.

Urban Decay has lived up to its reputation the Naked 3 palette is worth buying. :)

Life is more then just drinking.

 For the past couple of months I have come to the conclusion that life is more then drinking and going out the bars. I know that might sounds pretty accurate to some people but when you are surrounded by friends that find it acceptable to live that lifestyle it starts to become acceptable. One of the worst parts of being young is that many times young individuals let them selfs be influenced by their friends. Before turning 21 it is every teenagers desire to be finally reach that sacred age and be able to go out to the bars and go out with friends. Now that I have been thru that stage of my life when you are not able to go out and do those stuff and when you finally are able to it is not everybody makes it out to be. Lets all be honest, it is fun for a couple of times but after a while it gets boring and old. Most of the time all you ever see at the bar and clubs are people who are not able to control them selves and end up acting a fool. Maybe I think this way because now a days teenagers start drinking early at house parties and by the time 21 arrives alcohol has taken a toll on the body. I know I can speak for my self and say that I have had enough bad experiences because I wanted to fit in and drink as much as my friend did but not that I look back why would anybody wanna wake up with a killer headache and nausea. Not this girl.